First of all way too much time has passed since I planned to publish my last entry... a not so funny thing happened and I had an accident with my right hand (my dominant hand) that involved emergency room visits... consultations with two Hand Surgeon specialists... long story short... I'm not going to lose my right thumb, tendon issues have resulted in physical therapy and surgery is still on the back burner.... so the marvelous follow up that I had planned for October is on hold. (I have notes and an outline)... I just need two working hands to do all the keyboard work.
Today I'm going to share with you the outline of what I had actually planned on writing about this month... it's the next chapter of my life that has taken some time and soul searching to outline... I will probably expand on this in the not too distant future... but for today a distilled version and some images until I have better use of both hands and all fingers.
So the next chapters of my life have many names...
- By Invitation Only
- Mutually Beneficial or "Bye Felicia"
- I'm Not Letting Anything Slide Anymore
- If I have To Question What Side You Are On... You Are Not On My Side
- I Am Tired Of Having To Recover From People And The Things Said And Done
So there you have it... I have always tried to see the best in people and situations my entire life and I finally had to learn that people show you who they are and at the end of the day the right people fight for you and are in your corner. The right people show up not just when it's convenient... but because they care... even when it's difficult and messy. I finally learned that a lot of people are just beautifully wrapped boxes of shit... but the people that matter... are the people who really matter.
Almost my entire adult life someone has tried to convince me that I was being judgmental when my intuition was telling me that someone or something was off or not quite right... I'm not wasting anymore valuable time on people, places or things if something seems off or wrong... and finally... we have such a limited amount of time that I'm not going to water myself down for your comfort so that maybe you will like me better.
As difficult as the world and circumstances have been since covid changed the way we work, and live... it's given me a chance to finally recover... because burnout takes years to recover from...not days, not weeks...years! One of the most difficult realizations in all this is that when a version of you or your life ends... so do some of the connections to the past. It's so important to know deep inside of you that even if you could go back to another time and another you... you can't because you don't belong there anymore...
The minute you choose exactly what you want to do and be... you start living a different kind of life... I never in a million years want to go back to the past... but it's nice to visit if for nothing more than to feel and see a few things again with a fresh perspective. I think the main reason some people hold so tightly to memories is that they don't change in the ever-changing uncertain world we live in... keep your memories intact but don't cling to them as a crutch... we all have to change and grow or we don't get to write new chapters.
The following image is one of the best things I've come across recently... it translates to "In The End We All Turn Into Memories"
So... my hand is killing me again (burning and throbbing) so I'll leave you with some images I've found traveling on the internet...
One of the things that I've really missed (besides able to fasten buttons) is regular exercise... walking will have to suffice for now... but I miss working out... I get some of my best ideas and inspirations at the gym...
So for the people who are part of the coming chapters... here is what we will be writing together...
Thanks for reading... see you next time!
